Are you happy with who you are? Will you be? Am I? Will I?

There comes a time in ones life where you will question everything that you have done up until now, but you don't need to re-evaluate your life, you just need to confirm your beliefs.

Anything and everything has no point to it, the only point to it is yours. What triggers this train of thought is normally the observation of lives led by others--what have i accomplished in my life? The validation from society is what drives many people to do what they do, if no one cared for another persons existence or what they were able to accomplish, there would be absolute nothingness. It's the way the system has evolved, the world has always revolved around the hype of things. School is rather, in my opinion, a complete waste of time. But, it does prove your willingness and dedication to strive for something, and that is why i believe it to be a good representation of who you are. It does not only take dedication, but the nurturing (if received) from childhood also plays a huge part in dictating whether or not you will go and complete school. However, a person who has never stepped foot in college can still be in my book, equally intelligent in the aspect of perspective. The hugest part of learning is going through pain, struggle, and life. Take me for a quick and sloppy example: never went to college. Where did i develop my vocabulary or sense of writing? Pain and lots of reading. How do i know math? Added up a lot of money. How do i know anything about psychology, or anthropology? By having a very social and sexual life. And the list goes on.. some people learn better when taught, others learn better while experiencing, and a few learn better by just the plain willingness to learn.

My life, is all but an accomplished one. But not only by society's standards, but by mine. i have done a few things that i have dreamed of doing, but the real question is--when did i have these dreams? During my upbringing? Teenage years? i do not wish for anything nowadays other than to rest.. to be free from the stress. To sit quietly on a beach and sip a cold drink. Eh, who am i kidding, i couldn't possibly do that. I've seen and experienced way too much to be comfortable doing that. I'd like to just, travel forever until i have visited everywhere in the world. Escape the world I'm living in, to experience the world i envision. To never be settled down, or stuck in a moment of time. I want to feel. I want to feel something. I've been numb for so long, spending my life searching for a potential "feeling" is a beacon of hope--traveling is my hope. If i get to feel what I've felt when i was a child, i will die satisfied.